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Grouplove - Tongue Tied
Shit happens and something you’ve put all your time, heart and soul into can instantly be taken away from you without any warning.
And all you can do is lie in bed thinking about how that something, that was part of who you are, somehow changed overnight and is getting ripped out of your calm embrace. Promises, plans and happiness…; broken, lost and stripped away. You start to blame yourself, because obviously you are directly connected to the situation, and for some reason there’s no chance in undoing it. Maybe you should have put more effort in the past—maybe you can set different plans for the future? Scenarios speed through your mind—some bound to work and some still needing details. But no. It doesn’t matter what you try to do now. The decision is not yours to make because the heavy-hearted plan is already set in motion but the words aren’t coming out right and your brain can’t understand their origin.
Then before you know it, you’re alone. And you feel the shattered pieces of your very essence and spirit spill into your stomach like bricks: Your eyes flood with tears and breathing becomes erratic, maybe even painful. You’re hungry but you can’t eat. Exhausted but in such distress that your mind won’t let you sleep.
And the world has not stopped for you.
Where is your composure? Misplaced, unrecoverable for the moment. And once you’ve finally gain some control, you’re left feeling empty.And you don’t know how something growing so strong over weeks, months and years surrendered and disappeared within a morning.
What do you do now? Just breathe. The world has not stopped for you.
